Yesterday was my first full day of vegan eating, and quite honestly, it did not go as ideally as I had hoped. I’ve heard that as a vegan, I need to eat more calories than I would in a normal American diet. With that in the back of my mind, I tried to plan out my meals for the day. I ended up getting a late start to the day, which was my first downfall. After sleeping in and doing some work for my summer class, I ate my first meal at noon.
I follow a lot of vegans on Instagram and Twitter, and their meals are beautiful. They have these large plates of colorful fruits and vegetables and they’re sitting in some exotic location, eating their gorgeous food. My breakfast was not like that. I had a bowl of Special K Red Berries and almond milk, an apple, and some PB2. I felt like I had failed, even though everything I ate was vegan. Because I wasn’t eating these mono-meals of mangoes or a large banana smoothie, I wasn’t doing veganism correctly.
A few hours later, I went to the gym, and my day got a little worse from there. Because I had eaten so little and so late, I almost fainted in the middle of my workout and had to end it early. When I got home, I had the ever popular “avocado toast”. Those vegans on Instagram are always posting about avocado toast, so I felt like I was getting back on the right track. A few hours later, I ate a baked sweet potato and had a large salad, and I finally felt like the popular vegans I looked up to.
I found that after dinner, I was hungry, and I began snacking on cereal, toast, and nuts. I couldn’t help but feel disappointed in myself. I was reverting back to my binge eating/ overeating habits, and I took on this lifestyle to rid myself of those habits. Even though I had eaten vegan all day and had not consumed a single animal product, I felt like a failure.
But I’m not. I’m a normal person. I’m not going to eat like the vegans on Instagram for every single meal, and they probably don’t eat like that for every single meal either. I need to pave my own pathway on this journey. No matter what kind of vegan I am, I’m helping the animals and the planet. Instead of hating myself for eating what I think is too much, I’m going to start tracking my calories, not to restrict them, but to see how many I take in each day eating this foods. As I said before, I’m starting this journey not only for the animals, but to learn how to really love myself and appreciate what my body can do. Today is a new day, and I’m starting off on the right foot. I’m learning to be proud of myself for making this transition, and for sticking to what I believe is right.
I”m so excited to be starting this journey, and I’m glad you can follow me along the way. Much love!